The End Product is Only Part of the Story

I recently watched a professional ice hockey game and heard the commentator say, “He makes it look so easy.”

Over the course of the break in play, the commentary pair made parallels to other sports and athletes in such a way that seemed to overlook a reality we’ve all heard about, few of us have lived, and even fewer can fully appreciate or understand.

Watch enough professional soccer games and you’ll hear similar phrases: “They made it look so easy with that movement but where’s the end product?”

Here’s something we already know…it’s not easy.

It looks easy, but it’s not.

It’s something else.

And so, it got me thinking about a topic I discuss with players, parents, and clients all the time.

The behind the scenes efforts.

During a recent training session, I demonstrated a few technical movements and some agility and fitness work to make sure my expectations were observed and absorbed by the players. I also model this when necessary to reaffirm that I will never ask my players to do something I haven’t done myself, couldn’t do myself, and won’t do myself.

That’s just my style. Yours may be different. That’s OK. Back to the point.

A player struggling with the work scoffed and said, “That’s easy for you, you’re the coach.”

I was glad they said this because it was a teachable moment.

I told the player it’s easy for me because I’ve worked on those skills, movements, and abilities my entire life…when nobody was watching and when nobody cared.

I then told them it was largely in preparation to play but ALSO to coach THEM.

It hit home (thankfully). Their attitude shifted and it was one of those rare moments were the message was received by the person AND the player (it’s important to consider both when coaching).

Here’s a premise I take to players and clients so they can think about the process and journey on which we are embarking.

How much do you really know about someone if you’ve only seen them their best? Or perhaps, if you’ve only seen them in a performance?

People often look at someone on the surface and come to a series of resounding and assured conclusions.

This is risky and it’s dangerous.

For most people, it’s quite easy to look at the finished product standing there before them and make assumptions that hide valuable information and details that can be applied to their own journeys.

Looking at the personalities, habits, and traits of the greats in any sport is valuable.

What’s even more valuable, however, is examining athletes in disciplines and arenas in a variety of sports, contexts, environments, and even the time or era in which they honed their skill-set.

Much like Cristiano Ronaldo is lauded for his insane and obsessive physical and technical supplemental training habits, or Michael Jordan’s and Kobe Bryant’s obsession with winning and competing in ALL facets of life aided their development and approach to honing their craft the fact of the matter is we must understand one very important principle:

“Championships aren’t won in the theater of the arena. They are won in the thousands of hours of training and the 5 AM runs in the rain when everyone else is sleeping. That’s where it’s won” -Greg Plitt

Truth be told, if you want to unlock the contributing reasons Steven Gerrard or Frank Lampard — two footballers known for getting extra sessions in on the training pitch, in the gym, and with their coaches — it’s important to understand what we’re really looking at when we see them on the pitch on match-day.

We’re seeing the thousands of extra repetitions, hundreds of extra hours studying and working on their craft, and countless of hours spent in preparation for the performance.

The same is true in any discipline. Musicians rehearse for hours until their fingers bleed, backs ache, and bones hurt for an audience of none.

Writers who have more rejection emails and letters than anything published.

Runners who train in the dark, puke on the track, get torn up on the trail, and train years for a single race or event.

Weight lifters who are methodical in their diet, sleep, rest, and workout patterns while everyone just believes it’s steroids that make them strong

The artist who sells his work for cheap on the street corner or gives their work away for years before they ever get a place at an expo or is picked up on contract by an creative agency who will pay them to pursue their passion.

You get the idea.

Now let’s think about ways to connect this closer to home.

Think about the mother and/or father who coaches, volunteers, takes on more jobs, has side gigs to buy the right boots for their son or daughter, works longer hours at job they’d rather not give more of their time to so they can provide knowing they’ll get no praise or be shown no gratitude for enduring.

Hell, I know parents who want to help and contribute by setting out cones and reading books I recommend so they can feel more in-touch and in-tune with their child.

They do this so they can have some sense of self-worth.

I see it when perhaps their child or spouse does not.

This is honorable in my opinion.

The point is the end product is final stage of the pursuit, which is itself a journey laden with struggle, triumph, progress, change, pain, and sacrifice.

Doing the hard thing is often the right thing.

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Lost in a Performance

For as long as I can remember, I’ve replayed scenarios and sequences of games gone awry in painful detail; to the point I have to wonder if what I am accessing and recalling is what actually happened — or is it merely a subjective rendition of the performance?

Personally, as I got older and the stakes in the game got higher, the practice of assessing performances extended to training sessions in addition to match play. The exploration of the minutia is a double-edge sword with a faulty hilt because one cannot hold onto such moments, nor can they wield them in actuality.

I’ve always taken note how the players that I coach reflect on their performance — if they do so at all. For most, it’s not really a reflection but more of a reaction — a momentary outburst in the moment. For others, it’s a practice of self-immolation whereby they douse themselves with vats of criticism before anyone else can.

This type of reflection is a deep practice and quite a personal one.

Instances in a game gone astray can be broken down to a series of highlights detailing individual mistakes or triumphs. What is quite perplexing, however, is the perception of  the performances often become a staple for players at a young age — especially if they are playing in competitive environments. Naturally, coaches play a role, too. Although, perhaps the biggest of these factors is the interaction between a player and their parent(s).

Of course, there is value in self-analyzing one’s individual performance as long as it presents opportunities to learn and to eventually improve.

But, this is seldom how it works.

Most people have heard the phrase paralysis by analysis, and it’s an important one to comprehend. Analysis framed in objectivity is a powerful tool. When that analysis is doused in the waters of subjectivity it often marinates in negativity and obsessive self-critique cycles. Additional input from coaches and parents who are not playing, developing, and learning the game often splatters confusion on the canvas of a player’s mind.

Such feedback loops can prove toxic and permanent in the long run.

Recently, I returned to the field of competition after taking time off from playing when my first son was born. Although I have been on countless training pitches putting in hundreds of hours in training settings — as a coach. But when I took the field again as a player I found myself caught in that same old feedback loop from my youth — just like the players I coach find themselves in now — replaying sequences and scenarios again and again.

So, I decided to explore this more. I found that the highlight reel of plays, both good and bad, droned on in my head during my commute. Instances flickered behind my eyelids when I’d lay down to sleep.

I thought to myself, is this really happening again? Me, a grown man, caught in the cyclical storm of performance contemplation.

Two games later, my performances began to improve as the pace of the game and chemistry with my teammates developed again. Oftentimes, the fail-point or performance fault-line was the result of a lack of synchronicity between teammates. I took note that these instances, if not kept in-check and managed properly extended into the land of hypothetical and extraneous situations, which did not help me gain any positive insight or any opportunity to extend my learning. I reminded myself that one should often worry most about that which they can directly control. Those elements that are out of our control tend to muddy the already murky waters ever more.

Personally, this whole episodic return to my playing days and all the feelings and reflections associated with those days led me to conduct an experiment of sorts. I wondered why I was so affected by performances on the field but not so much to other pursuits of mine such as running.

Fast-forward to a few days later, after a shorter race that I used as a simulation for an upcoming marathon. After the race, I walked around and took in the scenes, talked to other runners, recalled moments of triumph and struggle, and separated from the event with relative ease. Later, when I reviewed my mileage analytics and running metrics — all objective analysis — I found that the race performance was decent given the training I put in and my fitness levels and experience running road races. Overall, it was not great but not terrible. But something was different — I was completely at peace with the performance.

I hit my splits. I felt so-so. I handled the conditions the best I could on the day. I ran well and certainly accomplished my goal of getting time on the legs and miles under my belt in a race setting.

Suddenly, the lightbulb flashed on in my head.

The obvious takeaway is competition. On the field, it’s 90 minutes of antagonism between two teams where the result often hinges on the outcomes of the individual battles on the field. In running, for example, I am not competing with elites nor am I really making decisions and competing in ways that determine the outcome for anyone but myself.

Yes, it’s intense and physically demanding — but it’s not soccer.

The second epiphany is a bit more intriguing:

When I really think back, it turns out I was never analyzing my on-field performances. I was never really contemplating these flash-points of games long since consigned to memory.

I was being consumed by performance.

Somewhere during our development as competitive players, we face the barrage of questions from teammates, parents, coaches, and ourselves about what transpired on the field — often on the car ride home or at the kitchen table that same day. That barrage becomes an echo chamber that serves as a cacophony of assumptions and harsh judgments tethered to moments that are long gone — if they even happened as we remember or as they’ve been recounted to us.

There is value in considering a few elements.

Firstly, players ought to understand that it’s entirely possible and plausible that they could perform at very high levels and do everything well and still lose the game. That’s a big aspect.

The second element is understanding the variances affecting performance are many and some are out of a player’s control.

Assessing performance is valuable but we must not make ourselves into tragic heroes of our own mythology — chaining one’s self to the crag while an eagle tears out your liver each day is more of a hindrance than a help. Players often punish themselves before anyone can do it for them, which is telling of the true values of the current soccer ecosystem.

And yes, winning is important. Performance, however, is different from winning and losing. This is why it’s important for coaches and parents to applaud effort before outcome for young players. Performances will undoubtedly consume players — that’s because competitive players care about outcome and execution and winning games. Losing and having flaws and weaknesses exposed hurts, and the competitive part of a player’s DNA sees those as reflections of themselves.

Additionally, those negative outcomes tend to affect a player’s enjoyment level, too.

Players need to tread carefully as there are two dangerous avenues that I’ll highlight that get way too much traffic.

The first one is what I call the Atlas Effect. All too often, players volunteer themselves to be Atlas and put the weight of the world on their backs and shoulder the responsibility of everyone and everything that occurred. This is a bizarre practice but it’s tied to the concept of ownership and accountability. If not kept in check, the Atlas Effect becomes a default setting and is perceived as a grandstand or failure to extract the important elements from an individual performance.

Go to any youth game or training and you will often hear the repetitive echoes of “my bad” for any and every mistake regardless of degree and placement on the field. “My bad” is a conditioned response that’s borderline theatric, which has become part of the soccer player’s lexicon.

The second avenue is arguably more dangerous. That is the avenue of avoidance and apathy. Players who tune-out performances and don’t own their contributions or actions on the field perhaps out of fear or true apathy. This is a poisonous cycle that usually results in internal strife and external conflict.

Performance is a tricky element. There are team and individual performances to account for, so players and coaches must be careful in assessing and reflecting. Give performances time to breathe. Learn to let them go if they begin to consume your mind and action. We’ve all heard the phrase, “You’re only as good as your last performance” or something to that effect. Be careful with that one.

Think of performances as opportunities to learn. The moments are gone, so it’s best to extract the usable data and reflect on them objectively. After all, there’s an art to having a bad game as much as there’s skill in learning to move on.


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The Concussion Debate: Exploring Football’s Most Mysterious Injury

The crowd braces for inevitable impact as two energetic under-17 players on a collision course with one another refuse to let up in a challenge near the sideline. The larger of the two players immediately bounces back up, rubs his shoulder and grimaces. The other player remains motionless on the ground. A trainer and coach evaluate the injured player who’s visibly showing signs of disorientation. His coach, taking the proper course of action, subs the player off. A muffled applause echoes across the field as the injured player staggers to the bench where he begins to dry heave and vomit. He briefly gets back up to his feet and jogs back and forth before another dizzy spell forces him to sit down next to the trainer. All of a sudden a man shouts, “He’s fine, coach! Get him back on the field!” People continue to chat. I notice nobody sees anything wrong with the outburst. “That’s his son. He always yells when his son comes off,” a parent tells me after seeing my horrified expression.

I think about the incident and decide to write about concussions from my perspective. It seems that concussions aren’t a pressing issue unless someone is a well-known player or pundit dealing with concussion-related effects and makes it a talking point. For an injury that occurs between 1.6-3.8 million times a year according to the National Center for Health Statistics, it’s a necessary topic. As important as those well-known individuals are to the educative process, I write from the perspective of the everyman — someone who has played the game, but not professionally.

Concussions aren’t mutually exclusive for professional or amateur players, or sports for that matter. However, the injury affects sport at all levels. People tend to shelve the issue of concussions not out of malice, but out of lack of knowledge — until a concussion affects them or their child. I admittedly don’t know where to start, so I consult with people who dedicate their time to concussion education. The purpose, for me, is to dispel some myths, educate anyone willing to be educated, and encourage more exploration into the world of concussions and Traumatic Brain Injuries (TBI) to hopefully push for increased awareness and proactive change in safety protocols.

According to the Sports Concussion Institute: “A concussion is defined as a complex pathophysiological process that affects the brain, typically induced by trauma to the brain. It can be caused either by a direct blow to the head, or an indirect blow to the body, causing neurological impairments that may resolve spontaneously. Symptoms usually reflect a functional disturbance to the brain, and may include physical (e.g., headaches, nausea), cognitive (e.g., difficulty with concentration or memory), emotional (e.g., irritability, sadness), and ‘maintenance’ (e.g., sleep disturbances, changes in appetite or energy levels) symptoms. A concussion is considered a brain injury.”

I think about how I got here, attempting to shed light on this heavy topic and it takes me back a bit. According to the medical forms my mother has kept, my first documented concussion occurred 25 June, 1996. Like many young players I took my turn as a goalkeeper in a game. Just before the start of the game, I was standing out of the goal mouth when a gust of wind toppled the goal over and the crossbar hit me in the back of the head, driving it into the ground. I remember grabbing my face and feeling my shattered jaw just dangle. I refused to remove my hands from my face out of pure terror and shock. The off-white foam of the goalkeeper gloves was now soaked with blood. The rest is lost in a void of nothingness. I’d later hear about my irate coach screaming at the referee for not checking that the goals were anchored while my father carried me to a bench where another parent tried to pry my hands from my bloody face.

I awoke several hours later in the hospital with gauze packed into my mouth and wires and protruding through my cheeks and chin attached to some brace device on face. I recall trying to scream and call out, but my mouth was wired shut. Strapped to a table for a CT scan, I began to panic while exhibiting many of the indicators the American Academy of Neurology has laid out as concussion guidelines such as: suspicion of intercrainial structural injury and hemorrhaging (subdural, epidural, intracerebral, or subarachnoid), loss of consciousness (LOC) exceeding 30 seconds, poor orientation, loss of coordination, and significant drowsiness.

I spent the next week in a dark room as lights were too bright for me. The doctors informed my parents that I suffered a fractured jaw and orbital bone, moderate trauma to the back of my skull, and a grade three (severe) concussion. I learned about this laundry list of injuries much later even though I was in the room when the doctor read them off. As horrific as the incident sounds, it could have been much worse.

Recovery from the broken jaw, orbital bone, and several visits to an oral surgeon took a few months, but the migraines and dizzy spells never really went away. Fast forward several years later and I learned to live with the migraines. I continued playing and excelling at the game and never feared heading the ball or a hard challenge. Back then, coaches reinforced how toughness was of the utmost importance. The axiom was reinforced by culture-based principles lodged in the value of robustness as an attribute of the American player. The takeaway was timid play led to worse injuries, which is oftentimes correct. On the field, the game was as it had always been — part of my identity and I continued playing competitively despite momentary episodes of dizziness and slight vertigo. Off the field, I felt out of sorts and knew something was wrong. By the time I stopped playing competitively, I had suffered three more documented concussions through 2009.

In the past four years, two neurologists have told me to “exercise caution” should I partake in physical activity. In 2010, after suffering from multiple episodes of fainting and unexplained and debilitating wooziness at work, a doctor specializing in concussion-related injuries and effects told me, “You’ll still have intense migraines and sometimes feelings of sudden depression and nausea. The reality is some days will be fine and some will be difficult. Like any player, you’ve hit your head more times than you think. I’ve seen similar symptoms in boxers who are what we call ‘punch drunk’. Their disorientation becomes part of their normal day-to-day life. Most of these aggravations cure themselves over time. Some do not.” 
I contacted Samantha Sanderson, a former soccer player and a co-founder of an organization called Concussion Connection that aims to educate, facilitate research, answer questions, and bring concussion-related issues to the forefront of discourse. Sanderson is a third year doctoral student in Clinical Psychology at Wright State University’s School of Professional Psychology and much of her research and knowledge base is rooted in psychology. One of my questions revolves around the myth that concussions are rare injuries.  According to Sanderson:

“There is a misnomer that concussions are rare and that is detrimental. While there can be lasting effects from one concussion, the vast majority of these injuries resolve within 7-10 days (more liberally 30 days). Cognitively the symptoms should resolve in this time or within a few months, depending on who you ask. If cognitive symptoms linger there is typically an underlying psychological reason which remains as a result of the injury and does not mean the person is “making it up” or “it’s all in their head”. Nobody wants to talk about the psychological effects and that is detrimental to many athletes who experience these symptoms.”

Ever since professional players started wearing “scrum caps” and protective headgear, concerns over whether protective headgear should be required for youth players along with suggestions of eliminating headers entirely from the game at youth levels has become a hot-topic debate. Implementing more technical work will enable and encourage players to keep the ball on the ground. However, collisions are part of the game. According to Sanderson, protective headgear isn’t the solution. “There is actually evidence not only that headgear doesn’t work, but that it can increase risk of concussions due to the increase weight on the neck,” Sanderson states, “there is evidence they may reduce force, but we don’t know what that means clinically as the brain is still moving around inside the skull.”

It is evident society is drawn to the intense aspects of sport. Fans far away from the action adopt an impersonal attitude to player safety. Mainstream media still airs “Top 10 Hits” highlight reels and big hit compilations are extremely popular online. Societies have been conditioned to champion the “big hit” as something to celebrate and replay with a sadistic fascination. “While I agree with this, I don’t think the bulk of the responsibility of changing the culture will be on parents and coaches (though coaches have a greater responsibility),” writes Sanderson. “The sport culture will resist change due to fans. The attitude of fans is they don’t care because they are just watching for entertainment and thinking isn’t this what athletes get paid for?”

Of course, this is true — sport and entertainment are a massive money-making industry, so the degree of risk involved is trumped by the reward and spectacle. However, fault is shared by society and its athletes alike. As the modern athlete becomes bigger, faster, and stronger – valuable attributes that supersede the value of technique, body control, and coordination – players continue to play recklessly and assume the risks associated with the overt emphasis on physicality in soccer.

Current medical studies linking concussions to heading remain inconclusive. Heading has become the low-hanging fruit to blame for concussions. Many questions remain whether heading a ball increases risk for concussions and in some cases, traumatic brain injury (TBI). The majority of concussions suffered are the result of collisions between players or contact with the ground. A former teammate of mine and a Division 1 goalkeeper in his playing days, who’s now a physician and has studied the effects of head injuries and concussions, extensively weighed in on the issue, “We don’t understand much about the brain compared to other body parts. Personally, I believe elbows to the head in headers and head-to-head contact is far more to blame than most headers. The exception being those ones [headers] every once in a while that make your head ring.” We discuss the mood-related effects linked to head injuries. “Concussions do lead to mood issues like depression and headaches. But that can and should be treated.”

Perhaps one position most at risk for concussions is that of the goalkeeper. Petr Čech continues to wear a scrum helmet years after his skull fracture. Last November Tottenham Hotspur goalkeeper, Hugo Lloris, collided with Everton striker Romelu Lukaku. While Lloris should have been evaluated and removed from the field of play, he played the remainder of the game despite the fact he was knocked out. The media reported that he “recovered quickly” and like most players, he insisted he play on. Reports surfaced that Tottenham’s medical team “wanted him to be replaced”. In a later interview Lloris acknowledged the danger of the incident, “I was a subject of that and so it is easier for me to understand the decision. I realize now that I had taken a risk with my health. It will not happen again.”

Situations similar to the one involving Lloris aren’t rare. Last season, Lukaku himself was also knocked out and played on against West Ham. Robert Huth was knocked unconscious and continued playing for Stoke City against Manchester City and Thibaut Courtois played on for 14 minutes after being hit by Alexis Sánchez. The world watched as more incidents at the World Cup brought the reality and severity of head injuries and collisions to the forefront when Uruguay’s Álvaro Pereira and Argentina’s Javier Mascherano were both knocked unconscious and both continued to play. A stunned worldwide audience watched as in the 16th minute of the final, Germany’s Christoph Kramer was blindsided by a shoulder to the head from Argentine Ezequiel Garay. The German was evaluated by team trainers and if his woozy movements were apparent to audiences from around the world, his deteriorating condition should have been obvious to the onsite medical team that authorized the player to continue to play. Kramer continued for about 15 minutes before being substituted.

No player wants to admit they cannot play or absorb the reality they might have lasting cognitive effects, especially as the level of play and the stakes rise. One goal should be more understanding of the injury itself and the recovery of the affected parties. According to Sanderson, there is a need to “bring light to the psychological effects of concussions because it is taboo to talk about. The silence is squandering the opportunities for athletes to recover fully and in a timely manner. Concussions aren’t just a symptoms checklist. There is a person whose life is being upended and he/she is experiencing many different things.”

Much of the lack of attention likely stems from the fact a concussion is an invisible injury. Athletes with mild concussions look normal and will act normal if it keeps them in the game, so to speak. Personally, if my college coach asked me, “Can you play?” I likely would have said yes. Athletes are conditioned to play through pain. Concussion Connection conducted an interview with former U.S. Women’s National Team goalkeeper, Brianna Scurry, who used a fitting analogy to describe a concussion. In the interview, Scurry states, “a concussion is like having a jar full of M&Ms, each color represents a different concussion symptom. When a person gets a concussion it’s like reaching into the jar and whatever colors you get are your symptoms. No one person is going to have the same ones and in the same severity.”

According to Sanderson, there are many things to take in to consideration with concussions and society wants a quick answer and a quick fix, which just isn’t possible. The other side is the research stems from the paralyzing hysteria of chronic traumatic encephalopathy (CTE) development in athletes who have suffered from severe head injuries, concussions, and traumatic brain injury. The stories making the news include athletes struggling with pain, mood swings, and symptoms of dementia, memory loss, aggression, confusion and depression, all of which commonly appear years or even decades after the initial trauma. The stories making the news are the tragic suicides and outbursts of former athletes for an injury and damage that has no known cure.

Samantha Sanderson echoes what so many looking for reform in how society treats concussions have said. “Concussions are a unique injury, but they don’t have to be something to be feared. I maintain that developing a healthy respect for what a concussion is, what it can cause, and how it can impact someone’s circumstance is the best mentality to have. We have a long way to go. Until we can stop comparing concussions to ACL tears and other musculoskeletal injuries and see concussions as an individual experience where we have to trust what the person says they are feeling is indeed what they are feeling, progress will remain slow.”

Perhaps there is no agent for change more vocal and candid regarding head injuries than former New England Revolution and U.S. Men’s National Team forward Taylor Twellman who had to stop playing the game entirely as a result of concussion-related injuries. One of most startling revelations regarding a career cut way too short comes from an article on ESPN describing Twellman’s final game:

He said he got himself ready for his final game, on June 7, 2009, by taking four Vicodin, three Excedrin and “shotgunning a Budweiser”; he entered as a second-half substitute because he could only manage to play for 45 minutes at a time, and scored two goals.

His teammates wondered why he did not celebrate.

“My head was as soft as a sponge,” Twellman said. “I knew deep down I was done.”

Taylor Twellman oversees the ThinkTaylor Foundation, which aims “to create social change in the world of Traumatic Brain Injuries, by generating increased awareness, recognition and education” and has a website, that offers a knowledge base of resources for the public. Taylor Twellman is justifiably outspoken in his view that the governing entities of the game aren’t doing enough to address the issue of concussions and head injuries.

In a brief Twitter conversation with Twellman, I mentioned the need to “[re]educate parents and players at the lower levels of the game about the dangers of concussions.” In a short response, Twellman related to issue to the dangers of drunk driving in our conversation, “People still drink-drive even when a family member is hurt by a drunk driver.” We end our conversation with a tweet from Twellman: “If I help 1 person by telling my story and educating then it was worth it. #nodoubt”


This article first appeared on on November 19, 2014